Samantha switched to an alternating dose of 100 3x a week and 88 4x week from April to June, but she is still off. Her TSH went even higher this time, somewhere around 8, where the normal is 4.
The pediatrician is concerned with moving too fast, so we moved to 100 4x a week and 88 3x a week. For me that seemed minuscule, but we'll try it his way first. Samantha is 9 so I'm not as worried about the discrepancy as I was when she was 15 months. The only new hypothyroid symptom has been constipation.
We'll retest in a few weeks and then see where we are. Typically we've always tested in September and never at the beginning of summer. Samantha has nearly always needed a dose change in September--ever since she started school.
We've also noticed that for the first time in five years Samantha has not had bronchitis or pneumonia after summer swim lessons. We're attributing that one to the adenoidectomy she had last year. They found an abnormal pocket of bacteria at the time.
She still suffers from acute bronchitis a few times a year. We're hoping that will change.
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Draw time and the difficulty with flow
Samantha had a blood draw today. We picked her up from camp and handed her a full water bottle with the instructions to drink. She had the 30 minute drive to the lab to get in as much as she could.
Samantha's never been a good bleeder, even as a baby. She's learned that the more the drinks the easier the draw. Now that she's 9, we don't have to argue about it--she equates more water with less pokes.
But today, Samantha wasn't a good bleeder. She drank a lot of water, but had expended most of it at camp. She tried to drink a lot until she felt too full to drink more.
I typically sit in the lobby of the lab while she goes back in the chair by herself. We've come to know our phlebotomist well. Samantha likes to do it by herself--it makes her feel grown up. While we were sitting in the lobby today, Samantha and the phlebotomist were giggling. They were laughing because the draw started out well and blood was flowing and the moment they mentioned it the flow stopped. It happened twice.
I'm so glad that it isn't a negative thing, these blood draws. And that Samantha can find humor in a somewhat sucky situation.
When she was a baby and I had to hold her down because she was screaming and squiggling during a heel stick. I never thought this would get any better, but it has. It has been at least two years since Samantha last cried at a draw. And now she takes it like a champ.
In May, when our school had an open house, Samantha had her autobiography displayed on the the third-grade wall. It said: "My name is Samantha. I was born in Gilroy. I was born without a thyroid. My parents were so happy that I was their daughter . . ." Of course we are!
Samantha's never been a good bleeder, even as a baby. She's learned that the more the drinks the easier the draw. Now that she's 9, we don't have to argue about it--she equates more water with less pokes.
But today, Samantha wasn't a good bleeder. She drank a lot of water, but had expended most of it at camp. She tried to drink a lot until she felt too full to drink more.
I typically sit in the lobby of the lab while she goes back in the chair by herself. We've come to know our phlebotomist well. Samantha likes to do it by herself--it makes her feel grown up. While we were sitting in the lobby today, Samantha and the phlebotomist were giggling. They were laughing because the draw started out well and blood was flowing and the moment they mentioned it the flow stopped. It happened twice.
I'm so glad that it isn't a negative thing, these blood draws. And that Samantha can find humor in a somewhat sucky situation.
When she was a baby and I had to hold her down because she was screaming and squiggling during a heel stick. I never thought this would get any better, but it has. It has been at least two years since Samantha last cried at a draw. And now she takes it like a champ.
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In May, when our school had an open house, Samantha had her autobiography displayed on the the third-grade wall. It said: "My name is Samantha. I was born in Gilroy. I was born without a thyroid. My parents were so happy that I was their daughter . . ." Of course we are!
Monday, June 16, 2014
Today we had another follow up with the pediatrician to deal with Samantha's chronic bronchitis. He feels as helpless as I do. He was looking over her chart and recognized that there is a pattern as to when the bronchitis shows up: Spring through Summer.
She's been allergy tested and we've been released by the gastroenterologist but they're is still something wrong.
Last night Samantha started to giggle and then she couldn't breathe. We ran to the nebulizer and started Xoponex and saline. Her eyes looked panicked as she gasped for air. I talked her through it--I don't think either of us blinked the entire time. And when she started to cry I told her that she couldn't.
So today, when she fell asleep on the pediatrician's exam table I got some time where she wasn't listening to tell him how exasperated I felt. I said to him, "I told her she couldn't cry last night because when she cries the breathing is labored and difficult. I hate telling her that she can't cry and tough it out, but I don't know what to do."
He feels as lost as I do and wants us to look into some alternative medicine to help: biofeedback, acupuncture, as well as our allergist.
Our non-CH child, Alyssa, has terrible food allergies that we have yet to determine. She's allergic to strawberries and the non-organic wreak havoc on her face. And dairy--she's been tested for casein and a general panel but has shown no problems. There is something in milk that is an issue as she becomes very ill when she has milk. She's been getting huge water blisters in her mouth every couple of days from something that she's eating.
So with Samantha's chronic bronchitis and Alyssa's allergies we're going to explore a completely organic and non-processed diet. We're worried and desperate and praying that this helps with both.
We're also getting Samantha re-tested this week in preparation for our next thyroid check with pediatrician. Sometimes her illnesses and her inability to get over an illness signal a high TSH.
She's been allergy tested and we've been released by the gastroenterologist but they're is still something wrong.
Last night Samantha started to giggle and then she couldn't breathe. We ran to the nebulizer and started Xoponex and saline. Her eyes looked panicked as she gasped for air. I talked her through it--I don't think either of us blinked the entire time. And when she started to cry I told her that she couldn't.
So today, when she fell asleep on the pediatrician's exam table I got some time where she wasn't listening to tell him how exasperated I felt. I said to him, "I told her she couldn't cry last night because when she cries the breathing is labored and difficult. I hate telling her that she can't cry and tough it out, but I don't know what to do."
He feels as lost as I do and wants us to look into some alternative medicine to help: biofeedback, acupuncture, as well as our allergist.
Our non-CH child, Alyssa, has terrible food allergies that we have yet to determine. She's allergic to strawberries and the non-organic wreak havoc on her face. And dairy--she's been tested for casein and a general panel but has shown no problems. There is something in milk that is an issue as she becomes very ill when she has milk. She's been getting huge water blisters in her mouth every couple of days from something that she's eating.
So with Samantha's chronic bronchitis and Alyssa's allergies we're going to explore a completely organic and non-processed diet. We're worried and desperate and praying that this helps with both.
We're also getting Samantha re-tested this week in preparation for our next thyroid check with pediatrician. Sometimes her illnesses and her inability to get over an illness signal a high TSH.
Saturday, June 14, 2014
To draw or not to draw
We have a mid-year checkup with our pediatrician the first week in July and I need to have blood draws done before then. With Samantha on a considerable amount of prednisone and inhaled steroids, as well as antibiotics, I begin to waver about the draw. We (her doctors and I) are never really sure how all this medicine impacts her results.
It fits into our schedule to have the draws done this week, but Samantha is tapering the prednisone and will be on it until at least Wednesday. I suppose I won't make a decision until later this week.
It's been a sucky start to the end of the school year. She missed nearly 3 days of the last 5 because she couldn't stop coughing and breathing was difficult. I am crossing my fingers that it's not indicative of our summer.
It fits into our schedule to have the draws done this week, but Samantha is tapering the prednisone and will be on it until at least Wednesday. I suppose I won't make a decision until later this week.
It's been a sucky start to the end of the school year. She missed nearly 3 days of the last 5 because she couldn't stop coughing and breathing was difficult. I am crossing my fingers that it's not indicative of our summer.
Monday, June 9, 2014
Back to bronchitis
We're two weeks from our next blood draw. We're alternating 88 mcg 4 days a week and 100 mcg 3 days.
Samantha has bronchitis again. We've somehow managed to go almost 9 months without breathing problems, but now that her levels are fluctuating we find ourselves in this place again. Our pediatrician was as disappointed as we were--we thought she'd outgrown it.
We're back to Prevacid, prednisone, antibiotics, and breathing treatments.
The older she gets the more I notice that she doesn't bounce back from these bouts. She used to take her treatments and be back to dancing within minutes. This time she's more tired, pale, and just over it.
Samantha has bronchitis again. We've somehow managed to go almost 9 months without breathing problems, but now that her levels are fluctuating we find ourselves in this place again. Our pediatrician was as disappointed as we were--we thought she'd outgrown it.
We're back to Prevacid, prednisone, antibiotics, and breathing treatments.
The older she gets the more I notice that she doesn't bounce back from these bouts. She used to take her treatments and be back to dancing within minutes. This time she's more tired, pale, and just over it.
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Fighting back
March 2014
A few weeks ago Samantha and I went to Lucille Packard for her annual endocrine checkup. We already knew her levels were off--TSH was too high. Instead of working out medicine changes ahead of time, we thought we'd wait until we got there to talk it over with her doctor. She's a year or so from puberty so things could begin to change a lot. Knowing her history that is a worrisome prospect for us.
Our visit, however, didn't go as planned. We met a new doctor (which could have been my fault if I didn't specify when I called). He was unfamiliar to us, but marched in with her blood results. He listened to my concerns but dismissed every one. He didn't believe me when I said she wasn't normal (TSH resistant). He simply said that the labs were wrong and that he wouldn't change her dose. He knew nothing of her, her thyroid history, her medical history, none of it.
Samantha didn't say a whole lot. She was probably sensing my disbelief. I was so dumbfounded that I didn't speak up, which was the worst thing I could have done. He examined her said "Thanks for coming" and just walked out the door, addressing none of my concerns.
We left and I didn't know whether to be angry or cry.
When Samantha's levels are off it takes very little time before she becomes ill and she spirals out of control. Our regular endocrinologist would have never dismissed us and Samantha loves/trusts her.
So I called our pediatrician and got us in the next day. I explained what happened at LPCH and he was dumbfounded. I told him that I needed him to help me. We both know my child well and he knows that she can't go without a dose change if she's off. For crying out loud she went from normal to a TSH of 33 in two months when she was younger. It was serious and scary.
The pediatrician asked Samantha how she'd been feeling. She opened up to him and said that she's been sad and very angry. Even she knows what her body feels! My poor girl.
Our pediatrician agreed that it was dangerous to wait and so he changed her meds slightly. We started that day, tested this week, and guess what?! Samantha is now "normal."
Folks, fight for your child and don't let the doctor walk out the door like I did. Demand they address your concerns and make them read the damn chart. Samantha has been a patient there for 8.5 years. There is a decent-sized file on her!
A few weeks ago Samantha and I went to Lucille Packard for her annual endocrine checkup. We already knew her levels were off--TSH was too high. Instead of working out medicine changes ahead of time, we thought we'd wait until we got there to talk it over with her doctor. She's a year or so from puberty so things could begin to change a lot. Knowing her history that is a worrisome prospect for us.
Our visit, however, didn't go as planned. We met a new doctor (which could have been my fault if I didn't specify when I called). He was unfamiliar to us, but marched in with her blood results. He listened to my concerns but dismissed every one. He didn't believe me when I said she wasn't normal (TSH resistant). He simply said that the labs were wrong and that he wouldn't change her dose. He knew nothing of her, her thyroid history, her medical history, none of it.
Samantha didn't say a whole lot. She was probably sensing my disbelief. I was so dumbfounded that I didn't speak up, which was the worst thing I could have done. He examined her said "Thanks for coming" and just walked out the door, addressing none of my concerns.
We left and I didn't know whether to be angry or cry.
When Samantha's levels are off it takes very little time before she becomes ill and she spirals out of control. Our regular endocrinologist would have never dismissed us and Samantha loves/trusts her.
So I called our pediatrician and got us in the next day. I explained what happened at LPCH and he was dumbfounded. I told him that I needed him to help me. We both know my child well and he knows that she can't go without a dose change if she's off. For crying out loud she went from normal to a TSH of 33 in two months when she was younger. It was serious and scary.
The pediatrician asked Samantha how she'd been feeling. She opened up to him and said that she's been sad and very angry. Even she knows what her body feels! My poor girl.
Our pediatrician agreed that it was dangerous to wait and so he changed her meds slightly. We started that day, tested this week, and guess what?! Samantha is now "normal."
Folks, fight for your child and don't let the doctor walk out the door like I did. Demand they address your concerns and make them read the damn chart. Samantha has been a patient there for 8.5 years. There is a decent-sized file on her!
Lungs and reflux
July 2013
Bug had a follow up with her pediatrician today to see how clear her lungs were. After a week on prednisone, doubled-up inhalers, and antibiotics she is still producing a lot of phlegm. Her nose lining was red too, which is indicative of either sinus problems or reflux. Since she's not had a runny or stuffy one, we can conclude reflux. It's difficult, however, because typically she'll tell me when she's refluxing. She'll said that it burns or tastes bad, but this time it's less noticeable. The doctor called it "non-acid reflux." I've yet to research it.
But since Bug has not improved with the prednisone dosage, we're scheduling an appointment with her pediatric gastroenterologist. Bug last saw him in 2009, when we thought the adult dose of the Prevacid would keep the reflux under control.
I did find in my medical log (I keep very detailed notes for Bug) that she's had a lung infection every year the week after she has swim lessons. It doesn't matter the pool, it's the same cycle every year.
She's over it as was indicated by the rolling her eyes at the doctor. And I'd like to get her off all these meds.
Unfortunately we've done this enough to know when to give her which medicine so it doesn't interact or interfere with her synthroid or reflux medicine.
Bug had a follow up with her pediatrician today to see how clear her lungs were. After a week on prednisone, doubled-up inhalers, and antibiotics she is still producing a lot of phlegm. Her nose lining was red too, which is indicative of either sinus problems or reflux. Since she's not had a runny or stuffy one, we can conclude reflux. It's difficult, however, because typically she'll tell me when she's refluxing. She'll said that it burns or tastes bad, but this time it's less noticeable. The doctor called it "non-acid reflux." I've yet to research it.
But since Bug has not improved with the prednisone dosage, we're scheduling an appointment with her pediatric gastroenterologist. Bug last saw him in 2009, when we thought the adult dose of the Prevacid would keep the reflux under control.
I did find in my medical log (I keep very detailed notes for Bug) that she's had a lung infection every year the week after she has swim lessons. It doesn't matter the pool, it's the same cycle every year.
She's over it as was indicated by the rolling her eyes at the doctor. And I'd like to get her off all these meds.
Unfortunately we've done this enough to know when to give her which medicine so it doesn't interact or interfere with her synthroid or reflux medicine.
GERD and Surgery
June 2013
She aspirates and within days she's got a phlegmy cough. We attempted to double up the Prevacid dose from 30 mg to 60 mg a day and to feed her lunch at least an hour before swimming. That didn't work so now we're treating with 60 mg prednisone, Xoponex inhaler, and antibiotics.
Last August we had the same scenario but I didn't get on top of it quickly enough. Bug went from moderate coughing to downright scary, "do you know the location of the nearest hospital coughing." And I want to do anything I can to prevent this, but the pediatrician and I have seemed to max out our remedies.
Today he suggested we go back to the pediatric gastroenterologist and discuss Nissen fundoplication or esophageal sphincter surgery. The pediatrician has had other similar patients who often wind up with pulmonary problems with successful surgeries.
It's difficult to think about agreeing to surgery for an 8 year old, but I can't imagine what longterm steroidal use will do to her development. It's certainly a lot to think about.
Development Worries
June 2013
Like every parent with a child with CH, I used to worry about development milestones. We all know how important they are when they are babies. I used to worry about Bug's teeth--they were so late coming in. And she didn't walk until 15 months. But that girl had a love for books long before then.
Bug used to spend hours sitting with those bathtub (plastic) books in her hands looking at the pictures. She loved when we'd read to her and even learned to pull up on the bookcase. She was trying to reach the books we didn't allow her to play with.
Now at 8 she reads above grade-level and we have a hard time finding books that are age appropriate and challenging. Don't get me wrong, we still watch her development closely. But I feel like we have to worry less about it the older she gets.
What I'm saying is that it does get better.
Like every parent with a child with CH, I used to worry about development milestones. We all know how important they are when they are babies. I used to worry about Bug's teeth--they were so late coming in. And she didn't walk until 15 months. But that girl had a love for books long before then.
Bug used to spend hours sitting with those bathtub (plastic) books in her hands looking at the pictures. She loved when we'd read to her and even learned to pull up on the bookcase. She was trying to reach the books we didn't allow her to play with.
Now at 8 she reads above grade-level and we have a hard time finding books that are age appropriate and challenging. Don't get me wrong, we still watch her development closely. But I feel like we have to worry less about it the older she gets.
What I'm saying is that it does get better.
Stable . . . for now
June 2013
My daughter is now 8 and has been stable now for almost a year. Whew! And for the first time we've gone to 6 months blood draws.
She's been even healthier this year than she has her entire life. We had one bad bout of aspirated pneumonia when school started last August but have been healthy since.
I can't state the reason for sure, but we did manage to figure out a great system for the Synthroid. We bought a day-of-the-week pill case for Bug. Since she alters between 75 mcg and 88 mcg we figured that days that start with T would be our 75 days and the 88 days are all non-T days.
Bug wakes up, marches off to the kitchen and takes her levothyroxine with a glass of water. She doesn't eat anything for at least half an hour, but gets dressed, makes her bed, and does other pre-school related stuff. We make her wait 30 minutes so if she gets up late for school it can be an issue. Overall she's pretty good about it.
Bug did great when the LPCH pedi. endocrinologist quizzed her about her pills: what color was each dose? I never thought to ask her, but it's definitely important. She can tell me if I messed up a dose, which can happen after all.
On another note, I was recently told that I have an enlarged thyroid. I had blood testing earlier this week but no results yet. Most women in my family are diagnosed around menopause.
My daughter is now 8 and has been stable now for almost a year. Whew! And for the first time we've gone to 6 months blood draws.
She's been even healthier this year than she has her entire life. We had one bad bout of aspirated pneumonia when school started last August but have been healthy since.
I can't state the reason for sure, but we did manage to figure out a great system for the Synthroid. We bought a day-of-the-week pill case for Bug. Since she alters between 75 mcg and 88 mcg we figured that days that start with T would be our 75 days and the 88 days are all non-T days.
Bug wakes up, marches off to the kitchen and takes her levothyroxine with a glass of water. She doesn't eat anything for at least half an hour, but gets dressed, makes her bed, and does other pre-school related stuff. We make her wait 30 minutes so if she gets up late for school it can be an issue. Overall she's pretty good about it.
Bug did great when the LPCH pedi. endocrinologist quizzed her about her pills: what color was each dose? I never thought to ask her, but it's definitely important. She can tell me if I messed up a dose, which can happen after all.
On another note, I was recently told that I have an enlarged thyroid. I had blood testing earlier this week but no results yet. Most women in my family are diagnosed around menopause.
Dry, dry, dry
October 2012
One thing that is inescapable with CH is the dry skin and hair. Even when Bug is on the proper dose of levothyroxine her skin and hair is so dry. She drinks a lot of water and take omega-3s every day. We treat her skin with Cetaphil because it's so dry and she's so sensitive. And for her hear we use Moroccan Oil treatments, but not matter how much cream/oil it is still so dry and brittle.
We've been dealing with this now for 7 years so I doubt it's going to change any time soon. I just wish everything wasn't such a challenge.
One thing that is inescapable with CH is the dry skin and hair. Even when Bug is on the proper dose of levothyroxine her skin and hair is so dry. She drinks a lot of water and take omega-3s every day. We treat her skin with Cetaphil because it's so dry and she's so sensitive. And for her hear we use Moroccan Oil treatments, but not matter how much cream/oil it is still so dry and brittle.
We've been dealing with this now for 7 years so I doubt it's going to change any time soon. I just wish everything wasn't such a challenge.
Stabilizing the Curve
September 2012
We had a very productive visit to Lucile Packard a few weeks ago. We had a very nice Fellow sit down and talk with us for about 45 minutes--addressing all of our concerns about Bug. Then we saw the Ped. Endo. Even though we didn't get to see the head honcho, we were able to see a Ped. Endo. that took care of Bug at clinic a few years ago.
The doctors assured us that Bug is growing normally and mapped the growth curve from 2 years to 7 years. Except for one blip when she was 4, she's grown at a remarkably stable rate. The Fellow explained that kids who have a thyroid often don't grow at stable rate, so we should take some comfort in the curve.
We talked about puberty and what to expect: will it be challenging, will it be late, normal, etc. They assured us that as long as she is consistent with her medication then she should develop on a similar path to me. Whew!
I have to say it's funny talking about it in front of Bug when she really has no idea what we're talking about. And she's not super inquisitive, so she doesn't ask. Maybe she internalizes it more than I know . . . we'll see. I'm really not ready to address puberty yet--I want her to stay my little girl.
The Ped. Endo expressed the same theory our pediatrician has about why Bug's blood tests and medication fluctuate so much. They both believe that Bug has some issue with absorption. So it isn't really the thyroid or pituitary, but the gut.
Their thinking goes along with the pattern of questions I get after every blood test: "Is she taking this with iron?", "Is she drinking soy when taking her medication?".
Since the middle of August we've moved the medication taking to the morning. Bug gets up from bed, takes the medication, and then goes about her routine. She cannot eat until half an hour has passed. I'm hoping this stabilizes the blood results and we can get to the bottom of the absorption issue.
Both doctors have encouraged us to stretch out the blood tests to 4-6 months. I told them both that I wasn't comfortable going that long until we know that this morning routine works. Twice Bug has fallen off the range by a whole lot and it took us 6 months or more to get back in normal range. It's too risky yet.
We had a very productive visit to Lucile Packard a few weeks ago. We had a very nice Fellow sit down and talk with us for about 45 minutes--addressing all of our concerns about Bug. Then we saw the Ped. Endo. Even though we didn't get to see the head honcho, we were able to see a Ped. Endo. that took care of Bug at clinic a few years ago.
The doctors assured us that Bug is growing normally and mapped the growth curve from 2 years to 7 years. Except for one blip when she was 4, she's grown at a remarkably stable rate. The Fellow explained that kids who have a thyroid often don't grow at stable rate, so we should take some comfort in the curve.
We talked about puberty and what to expect: will it be challenging, will it be late, normal, etc. They assured us that as long as she is consistent with her medication then she should develop on a similar path to me. Whew!
I have to say it's funny talking about it in front of Bug when she really has no idea what we're talking about. And she's not super inquisitive, so she doesn't ask. Maybe she internalizes it more than I know . . . we'll see. I'm really not ready to address puberty yet--I want her to stay my little girl.
The Ped. Endo expressed the same theory our pediatrician has about why Bug's blood tests and medication fluctuate so much. They both believe that Bug has some issue with absorption. So it isn't really the thyroid or pituitary, but the gut.
Their thinking goes along with the pattern of questions I get after every blood test: "Is she taking this with iron?", "Is she drinking soy when taking her medication?".
Since the middle of August we've moved the medication taking to the morning. Bug gets up from bed, takes the medication, and then goes about her routine. She cannot eat until half an hour has passed. I'm hoping this stabilizes the blood results and we can get to the bottom of the absorption issue.
Both doctors have encouraged us to stretch out the blood tests to 4-6 months. I told them both that I wasn't comfortable going that long until we know that this morning routine works. Twice Bug has fallen off the range by a whole lot and it took us 6 months or more to get back in normal range. It's too risky yet.
The Big Day
August 2012
Tuesday we have our first appointment at Lucile Packard Children's Hospital. Mind you we've been part of their clinics since Bug was born in 2005, but for some reason this is the "big deal."
I wanted to go double check the name of the doctor we are asking to see (recommend by the pediatrician) and I found a "Kids" page on their website. Then came the tears . . . my tears.
Bug doesn't know this is any different than any other appointment we've ever had, but for me it's pivotal. She's not normal even among the congenital hypothyroid set--and the doctors' are continually baffled by her test results. It doesn't make it any easier that despite my constant monitoring of the CH parents' page on the Magic Foundation FB page, I still feel alone.
Sometimes it makes me sad to think she's so different even among her CH peers. The other kids don't fluctuate so drastically with the medication needs.
And then I read on about how around 11 many kids don't want to take their pill anymore because they don't want to be different. And I cry.
You'd think after 7 years I'd be used to this. But that is not the case and I'm sure it never will be. I worry about what happens with puberty around the corner and when she becomes a pre-teen and thinks that taking a pill is abnormal.
Today Bug had a blood draw before our Tuesday appointment and the phlebotomist had a hard time finding the vein in her left arm because of the scarring due to the past draws. She's 7! What does that mean for the future?
Tuesday we have our first appointment at Lucile Packard Children's Hospital. Mind you we've been part of their clinics since Bug was born in 2005, but for some reason this is the "big deal."
I wanted to go double check the name of the doctor we are asking to see (recommend by the pediatrician) and I found a "Kids" page on their website. Then came the tears . . . my tears.
Bug doesn't know this is any different than any other appointment we've ever had, but for me it's pivotal. She's not normal even among the congenital hypothyroid set--and the doctors' are continually baffled by her test results. It doesn't make it any easier that despite my constant monitoring of the CH parents' page on the Magic Foundation FB page, I still feel alone.
Sometimes it makes me sad to think she's so different even among her CH peers. The other kids don't fluctuate so drastically with the medication needs.
And then I read on about how around 11 many kids don't want to take their pill anymore because they don't want to be different. And I cry.
You'd think after 7 years I'd be used to this. But that is not the case and I'm sure it never will be. I worry about what happens with puberty around the corner and when she becomes a pre-teen and thinks that taking a pill is abnormal.
Today Bug had a blood draw before our Tuesday appointment and the phlebotomist had a hard time finding the vein in her left arm because of the scarring due to the past draws. She's 7! What does that mean for the future?
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